发信人: afei (阿飞), 信区: SCU
标  题: 6年的第12个家（小资恶文，慎入，慎入）
发信站: BBS 未名空间站 (Sun Oct 29 20:54:35 2006)

这个周末搬家，忙乱得一塌糊涂，刚有点眉目。

老婆忽然问，这是在美国的第几个家？

于是一个一个回忆过来。想起来第一个在NJ没有暖气的家，连洗澡都只有
10分钟的热水，老婆说我经常正一边洗澡一边吹牛，她就在外面看表，每
次一到时间，就听里面连声惨叫，乐得她笑倒在床上。

想起来在NY那个斗室。床一边是墙，而伸手就可以探出另一边的窗户。那
时候经常躺床上对后院的靶子练习射击（气枪），还乐呵呵的对着靶纸做
落点的分布分析来调试准星。

想起在加州的第一个家，在大街上一边跑步一边和黑兄弟们hello。想起
初到美国，2个人走遍纽约，到了WTC，一问，要40美圆，2个人摇摇头说
没有钱，但是我们会回来的，我们会有那么多钱的一天。说完老婆双手
比一个大圆圈，就好象《神龙教》里那个“天大的好消息”。:-))) 然后
911那天老婆开玩笑，这回好了，多少钱也上不去了。

曾梦想仗剑走天涯 
看一看世界的繁华 
年少的心总有些轻狂
如今以四海为家

不知不觉，6年，12个家。也不知道今后还会有多少个家。多少流浪。
其实只要彼此相依，便已足够了。

--For those who are struggling with lives

 

Is survival difficult for us? For the question throughout all my youth, an absolute answer has never been found.

 

We are always dealing with two things for life, what are available to  us and what we want, between which there is always a gap, large or small. To deal with this gap, two methods are commonly used. Either, you transform the later to the former, to be realistic, to be adaptable. Those who can satisfy can enjoy life, as an old saying tells us. But for the other way around, you try to make your dream avaiable. Misery of life  thus are produced.

 

At certain crossovers of one's lifetime, those puzzling questions floating around his mind are always the same: what kind of person I want to be? What kind of life I want to live? What altitude I want to achieve?

 

But actually all that matters is still how to fill the gap between what are available and what are desired. Difference is only which way you choose.

 

Luckily we have the answer in most cases, or at least we have the choices. As to career, the second way seems more preferable. Age is our capital. So keep fighting, for the day we fight no more.